recently i planned to move to my friends house.
so i called my mom and told her about my plan.
she said she will ask the hindu samy at my house to pray for me.

the samy called.
he said 25th Apr will be suitable to move in.
i asked him to check my time, whether i'll face any problems in near future.
well, i am not too superstitious, yet i always refer him as guidance

he called again
"you need to be more careful mixing around your friends" he said.
i asked why
"there are some of your friends actually hating you and boycotting you,
you just don't realize it because they are so nice infront of you.
but they actually said bad things behind you!
i saw a few figures in my prayers"
he answered me.

but i think i never did anything so bad until it made others hates me!
"you never knew what people think bout you" he said again.
so should i continue my plan to move to new house?
"u can, but i advice not to.
according to your horoscope, moving to new place now is not good
don't worry, i'll continue to pray for you." he told me again.

OMG! i cant believe it! then who should i trust?
his reply was simple:"GOD"

sad, i was soooo sad.
i never knew there are peoples pretending to be normal infront of me
but actually silently boycotting and hating me behind.
actually the samy can figure out who they are and give me clues,
but i prefer not to. it will made me even more sad if i know who they are!

suddenly,
i felt so lonely and alone.
i don't know who should i trust now.
there are fake people acting around me.
and for the first time in my life,
i cried.
i cried for something not related to family matters.

well, it might be my fault.
may be i did something that made them hating me.
i am extremely sorry for that.
i never realized i did something that hurts you guys.
i am a normal human being, an imperfect normal human being after all.
i don't blame them for hating me,
and i'll accept it as a payback for what i had done.
i'll be more happy if at least those people can directly tell me what i had done wrong to them.

well, i decided to be in inactive mode for sometime.
keeping myself away from everything.
please do forgive me if i didn't respond to you guys.
i think i'll need some time to be normal.

and lastly, i am extremely sorry to them.
i know they don't choose to hate me unless i did something bad.
i promise i'll change, if they willing to tell me what should i change,
at least better then leaving me to continue the same mistakes again and again...